as if it isn't hard enough to wake up for work on mondays, the cold weather and having spent time out of the city this past weekend must've definitely attributed to why my eyes felt heavier than usual this morning.
not to mention the horrible commute that took place on the trains today. delayed trains = longer waits to hail a cab outside of the station. i ended up taking the bus, but i will say that in hindsight, walking to work would've probably been much faster. saw the uglier side of people this morning, some resorting to violence out of frustration and impatience. i mean, seeing five, six, seven trains come by and not being able to get on them is frustrating, agreed. but to the point where cops need to get involved to facilitate? unnecessary.
mondays are always the busiest - i never eat lunch at a decent hour if at all, everything is always rushed, meetings are back to back, but in addition to all of that, a couple things that happened today have me just... feeling.... indifferent.
i never liked the notion of "living for the weekends," because if you're really only living for the weekends, it means that there's something not right about what you're doing during the week.
that's not the way i'd like to live.
& so i'm really hoping that i'm just ridiculously exhausted today (from yet another, amazing weekend)
cheers to tomorrow,
xxmon
Monday, October 24, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
things to look forward to
my mom & aunt, who is currently visiting from korea, decided to make a girls weekend and came up to the city to spend some time with my sister and me recently.
it was nice having them in the city -- doing things you normally do on your own are just that much better with people you love. my favorite cupcakes taste a little sweeter, cab rides become a little funnier. food tastes that much better. it was just, nice.
we went to woodbury commons on saturday and my sister's boyfriend sungmin, whom i didn't necessarily get off with the right foot initially (see previous post tagged new boyfriend), kindly offered to drive us there. the car ride was definitely a bonding moment for all of us, and seeing my (still) baby sister dote on a guy for the first time like she does made me smile. she seemed so grown up all of the sudden, but she is still my baby sister. i haven't seen her in a while, and seeing her in such bright spirits made me really happy. made me miss my boyfriend, who also makes me really happy (:
we ended the night at del frisco's and had the waitstaff pull out a cake and candles because it was sungmin's birthday. sungmin's parents live in korea and he's lived apart from them since he was in elementary school, so it touched my heart a little when my sister texted my mom, aunt and me at the end of the night saying that she was thankful that we were so sweet to him, and that he really had the best birthday. happy belated, sungmin!
nights in were the best, because my mom would share stories that i would hear for the first time. she would tell me about how at one point she feared that i would not love her, my own mother, because there was a time my paternal grandparents raised me in korea while my mom & dad were in the states and i would only cry at the mere sight of her. she shared feelings of regret towards her own mother who passed away when she was a freshman in college, and painful memories of how she felt so selfish and young. hearing my own mother, who i only view as perfect, describe herself the way she did pulled on my heart, because it made me realize that without the love of my father, without the love that grew when she became a mother, she could not possibly have become the angel that she is today. it just makes me love her even more, and it also gives me so much to look forward to in my own lifetime.
they were only here for three days, but when they left, i will say that i felt incredibly lonely and a little sad.
guess it only an indicator of how good the weekend really was.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
it was nice having them in the city -- doing things you normally do on your own are just that much better with people you love. my favorite cupcakes taste a little sweeter, cab rides become a little funnier. food tastes that much better. it was just, nice.
we went to woodbury commons on saturday and my sister's boyfriend sungmin, whom i didn't necessarily get off with the right foot initially (see previous post tagged new boyfriend), kindly offered to drive us there. the car ride was definitely a bonding moment for all of us, and seeing my (still) baby sister dote on a guy for the first time like she does made me smile. she seemed so grown up all of the sudden, but she is still my baby sister. i haven't seen her in a while, and seeing her in such bright spirits made me really happy. made me miss my boyfriend, who also makes me really happy (:
we ended the night at del frisco's and had the waitstaff pull out a cake and candles because it was sungmin's birthday. sungmin's parents live in korea and he's lived apart from them since he was in elementary school, so it touched my heart a little when my sister texted my mom, aunt and me at the end of the night saying that she was thankful that we were so sweet to him, and that he really had the best birthday. happy belated, sungmin!
nights in were the best, because my mom would share stories that i would hear for the first time. she would tell me about how at one point she feared that i would not love her, my own mother, because there was a time my paternal grandparents raised me in korea while my mom & dad were in the states and i would only cry at the mere sight of her. she shared feelings of regret towards her own mother who passed away when she was a freshman in college, and painful memories of how she felt so selfish and young. hearing my own mother, who i only view as perfect, describe herself the way she did pulled on my heart, because it made me realize that without the love of my father, without the love that grew when she became a mother, she could not possibly have become the angel that she is today. it just makes me love her even more, and it also gives me so much to look forward to in my own lifetime.
they were only here for three days, but when they left, i will say that i felt incredibly lonely and a little sad.
guess it only an indicator of how good the weekend really was.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Friday, October 7, 2011
unacceptable.
with the passing of steve jobs, i've found myself doing a lot of self reflections this week.
a man like him doesn't come around often -- a past like his, ambition like his, a drive like his, a love of life like his, an impact like his.
what kind of excuse could i ever come up with for any dissatisfaction i have?
i feel such an overwhemling sense of urgency to hone in on my true strengths and interests moreso than ever.
dreams don't always have to be dreams, and nothing is really stopping me from going after them but my own self doubts.
at 25 years old i cannot say that i'm particularly aware of what next steps i'll need to take to help me reach my full potential, but my yearning to pursue them has become more apparent than ever.
equally nervous as i am excited for what this even means for the months to come
but it's gonna be good.
r i p steve jobs.
thank you for the wake up call.
a man like him doesn't come around often -- a past like his, ambition like his, a drive like his, a love of life like his, an impact like his.
what kind of excuse could i ever come up with for any dissatisfaction i have?
i feel such an overwhemling sense of urgency to hone in on my true strengths and interests moreso than ever.
dreams don't always have to be dreams, and nothing is really stopping me from going after them but my own self doubts.
at 25 years old i cannot say that i'm particularly aware of what next steps i'll need to take to help me reach my full potential, but my yearning to pursue them has become more apparent than ever.
equally nervous as i am excited for what this even means for the months to come
but it's gonna be good.
r i p steve jobs.
thank you for the wake up call.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
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